Throughout this bed-rest-to-maternity-leave-endless-stretch-of-time, one of the many things that has kept me from relaxing has been uncertainty of the future. As of this week, the future has gotten a bit more certain. My life will be completely different than it was in the past seven years- not just because I’m a mom now, but because I’ve made measurable progress towards a goal. I will be working in my chosen field- not just doing a job for money. I feel this new reality slowly blooming. I feel like using a cocoon/butterfly analogy… but I won’t. I won’t say I’m a butterfly yet because that implies that I have no more changes ahead, but I have come out of a cocoon and I am a stronger, more complex, being. I’m exactly where I need to be- going exactly where I need to go.

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